Lot to talk about!

Its been forever since I done a blog and i apologize for that. But I have had a lot of exciting news though! I went to my peace corps interview 2 weeks ago and  It went great! it was great to actually sit down and talk to someone face to face.  The interview was what I expected. The information that i receive through various comments on this blog were extremely helpful.  I was able to go into the interview with confidence. The questions were ones that I was not used to but they were really in depth. They don't mess around when it comes to trying to pinpoint or nail down who you are in that short span, but it is something that they have to do so I understand.
After the interview I was able to sit down with my recruiter and talk with her. It was nice to talk to someone that has been through the whole process. she was great in the fact that i felt comfortable enough to talk to her about anything.  Right after the interview she told me that she was going to nominate me! she told me she would get to the necessary paperwork done till the end of august because she is so busy but told me not to worry.  I am trying to be patient about it but i want the paperwork to go through so that i can possibly start the next step which is the medical clearance.
I am not worried about not being medically cleared. I have Just heard that it is a long and tedious process. I just want to make sure that i get it done in a timely manner. The only concern I have for the peace corps is leaving next summer. I have nothing planned if i don't leave next summer.  So my timing is very important. 
On a different note school has started for me. It is weird being done with track. I don't have to go lift or go to practices.  I have a couple extra hours a day that I usually would put aside for track activities.  The social aspects of not being in track are their too. I don't know or really care to know any of the new freshmen on the time.  If I meet them great but I am not going out of my way too. 
I also have learned to not wait on people. What I mean by this is so many people talk about making plans and generally dont follow through. yes some things sound like a lot of fun to do but when it comes down to making the effort people generally don't. The next couple months are going to be interesting. I also found out that I was award a internship through the school sociology department.  It seems that good news does come in packages.
Sorry for the brief update but i have to run to do some homework! hopefully in the near future i will post a more comprehensive blog update!

Unsettlement and Unease.

My title is not as alarming as i make it seem. but it is the only way i know how to describe my life and emotions at this point.  I have made the next step in the peace corps routine. I have a interview next Thursday!!! I have no words or way of describing how i feel right now. I am behind excited and nervous all at the same time.  All the filling out of paperwork and waiting has paid off. I know their is plenty of more steps behind the interview but I view it as a step forward.  I am going to Seattle for the interview. It is about a 14 hour drive for me . They wanted to do it over the phone or via webcam but i felt like i needed to do it face to face.

The biggest part that i am worried about the Peace Corps is the questions. I keep going through my head what questions they will possibly ask; I am usually good at interviews and being asked random questions. I think the reason why I am so nervous for this one though is because it is something I Really want. Most of my interviews were just for  "jobs". This Peace corps interview is something that can change my life. Another aspect that i am finding difficult is the questions I should be asking. I know that i should be asking something of value to the recruiter, But I feel that I have done enough research that I don't have any pressing concerns.

It is weird in one aspect now that I know the process of becoming a volunteer is well underway.  How I treat relationships with people. Honestly before I mostly went out to meet people (women in particular) I went to find long term relationships. I don't look that way remotely at all. My focus has completely shifted towards peace corps.  Don't get me wrong i am not saying i am not interest in meeting different people and meeting new friends. I have and always will love doing that. But how I view the immediate future with those people has completely shifted.  This change applies to more then relationships with people. I don't want to buy anything because i see it as a waste. I also don't want to sit around anymore. I been trying to fill my weekends with activities that i been wanting to do. Like hiking or hanging with certain friends.  Trying to hang with various family member as increased too.

The reason i feel a little Unease by all this is because it is a major shift of prospective. I knew that Peace corps was a life changing process and decision but i wasn't ready to fee the consequences so early.  To most people they wouldn't like this but to me it is exhilarating. I love this feeling of being out of my usual comfort zone. it broadens your mind and horizons. I believe more people need to feel this way more often and get out of their comfort zone.  All of these emotions and prospective changing altitudes has done has gotten me excited. Its going to make the waiting all that much harder.